Open myself so much more!!!

While I got only 10min to write this down,before I go to lunch,when I get back I want to write down what I think and feel.  Most people know by now the inexsucable think I did in Omaha,but I wan't people to understand what it was like for me.  I am not here to place blame on anyone, if anything,I place blame on myself and to open up what it was like for me then, as well as now.  Folks,I want you to know that there is something very wrong with me,(But, I don't think it is as bad as people going postal!!! or as bad as that guy in Tucson).  I am opening myself up in hopes that for the people I have injured,you will forgive me.  I hope you folks will understand that because of my disability, (Now a Blessing) you will understand that I am not a bad person,but I am like everyone else who has sinned,but seeks forgiveness.  And how I turn my disability into a Blessing,and if you all will give me a chance,I can be a Blessing to you.  BRB