Head injury

For me,life is becoming more and more complicated thanks to my head injury.  All I could think about yesterday is my short coming in celebrating my mom's b-day, All I could think about is being on my own,getting away from everyone,be like a hermit,stepping out to do my volunteer work,going to confession and mass,going to the library,my therapy,etc.
My mother and my wife,think less of me because of my head injury,they may not admit it,but I think it is true.  I feel like I am losing control.  God help me!!!

My short comings

Once again I am reminded of my short comings...I look to devotions and prayers to help me stop sinning and I have to admit that I am not big when it comes to devotions, there is a part of me that likes to keep it simple-Rosary.  There are times that it is enough,but other times I wish I could do more, have the patience to do more, I don't know if it's because I am lazy or I just get to easily overwhelmed.
I have to admit that I am kinda scared.  My Godmother got in contact with me via e-mail and if there is someone that I want to look up to,it is her as well as her husband,my Godfather.  A man is supposed to be scared of his parents and be scared of there scorn,but it is them, my godparents that I am scared!!!
So many people have disappointed me,but not them, and I am scared of disappointing them.  Dear Lord I am so scared of my godparents.  I pray Lord that they will not shun me and embrace me with there loving arms and heart.  I love them very much.

Thoughts from a nobody

Viewing from the title of this,sounds like a self-esteem issue,but I do not mind being a nobody,even though I stand out in a crowd,people bypass me,and I am cool with that,it gives me time to observe them-and that is cool.
Over time I hope to share my thoughts and feelings with everyone I know.  I look foward to the responses, good,bad or even ugly, that way I know I am having an impact.  In a positive way.